I almost forgot again!

This is persistence. I just managed to delete the whole original draft. But instead of throwing this computer out of the window in a blind range. I'm going to calm and collectively, start again. *deep breaths*

SO!

I'm writing this with the use of InPrivate browsing. It's a nifty little function and it comes in handy because I'm using my brother's computer, which is very kind of him! I know for a fact, though, if he was reading this he'd have a fricking field day. It's the same with facebook. I have every member of my immediate family on facebook, mum, dad, brother and sister and the latter two are HELLISH! Every so often my sister'll say something along the lines of "who were you talking about in that status?" or my brother will go "who is that person and are you..." You get the jist. It's a pain in the ass. Which is why I use Twitter more, none of my family are on it, except my brother but he doesn't use it. He's not much into the social network bit, except for farmville and every other shitty ville you can find on facebook. Pain in the ass.

So anyways, this InPrivate browsing lark. It's quite good. Especially in this instance. But I do worry you know. Imagine if a pedo was using InPrivate. Would they be able to hide what they were doing or do you reckon there's some kind of loophole? Has to be eh?

So I'm really excited for Doctor Who on saturday night! I've watched last weeks episode 4 times now. SAD HAT! I wasn't really enjoying the series until I put the episodes and made myself pay proper attention. That was when I was able to properly appreciate it!

I got a great email thru this morning confirming that my Visa application had been accepted! I filled in the form yesterday morning and by the afternoon I had fully applied so the process has been really fast. I'm SO excited now I can't even verbalise. But at the same time I reckon if I was planning this over a number of months, I'd be getting nervous and it's only at times like this where if I slow down, I'd probably regret it instantly. Well, maybe not regret it because it's a spectacular opportunity (and it's cost me £235! more on that below...), but I have to take stock of what I'll miss. I'll miss my nephews first birthday, I'll miss the birth of a new niece or nephew. Sad sad sad. But then this is what photos and phones are for eh? And with the invention of things like Skype and webcam, I can see them all! Which is good. It'd be silly of me to miss out. I'd get used to it I reckon.

Now, the £235. I filled in all the neccessary questioning yesterday morning and I'm pretty sure it didn't mention anything about a fee. As I said, I filled it in nicely and everything and about 2 hours later I got the phonecall where they confirm everything and it has to be said that the woman was less than helpful, totally reading off of a script. Never mind though. As she was talking about the conditions of the Visa she then said "we'll also process your payment just now as well". I kinda went "erm...okay. Just out of interest, how much is that?

"£235."

I believe my answer was something along the lines of "WOAHHHHHH can you phone me back maybe?". She phoned me back about 2 hours later and I paid it, but it's safe to say, I'm in Overdraft City! But it's done and it's definitely happening. In the words of Phoebe Buffay; "eeshk!"

I don't think I have muchos more to say!

Much love to you all!

Paul xx

Just testing this for difficulty!

This is a test blog from the phone.

Seems to work no bad!

Read tomorrow for me yammering in more details about my adventure down under!

Much love to you all! 'Cept you. (sidebar; why do I keep saying that?)

Paul xx

The Madness in Mundanity

That is a rather genius phrase coined by Russell Howard. Basically meaning finding the oddities to be found in nothingness essentially.

It's what comes of working at home. The madness isn't really in mundanity. The madness is in my head! I find that I've fallen into a routine of going to bed at an hour I used to think was late. 3 or 4am usually. It's funny though when you think about it. When I had a normal sleeping pattern, well normal like falling asleep at 11 or 12 o'clock, waking up at 3 or 4am to go to the loo was absolute madness! Now, it's nothing. Sunlight pokes through the blinds and makes it strangely depressing to fall asleep.

Because I've fallen asleep so late, I usually wake up equally as late, at say 12pm unless I wake up before that through sheer guilt.

I don't know if I can blame the sleep pattern for this or if it's just me, but when everyone's gone I talk to myself, plan out my career, tell myself and either the loose women or Jonafun Woss what I'm up to at the moment (in the future).

Okay, it seems mental.

Granted, it is quite mental. But what it gives me is a clear sense of direction, of where I want to go in the future. So to the people who don't know me, it probably is mental. But in my head, it's ambition. It makes me ambitious and determined and I've lost my way in terms of ambition of late, but that all changes with this Australia trip.

I know exactly what I want to do. Isn't that a unique quality? It's taken me so long to get there. SO SO long.

So, am I mad?

Probably!

Oh well. Till the next time babes.

Paul xx

I'm usually rubbish at blogging and posting.

So the plan is to not be! Seems simple enough eh?

Probably not though. As I mentioned in the about me section, I am quite an extreme person. I always think the most extreme of any situation or feel the most extreme way any person probably would in that situation. It's not a conscious thing, it just happens, be it relationshipping, getting on a bus late at night, ambitions in life etc etc.

I think the fact that I'm quite extreme should make for some interesting reading. Or, on t'other coin face, you'll be able to look at this and go "shiiiit, I've got my problems, but nout like this guy!" It would please me if you had that reaction, because then I'd have unconsciously helped your life in some way.

In my actual little profile bitty it says I'm an OOWA (an Out Of Work Actor). I'm not properly actively seeking acting work. I'll occasionally send an email to a casting agent or an agent if something interesting comes up, but I do some admin work with my youth theatre....which is fine....when I get it. No fun. Acting is the super-ambition.

That's most likely the word for it. Super-ambition. Coupling the fact that I'm a man of extremes and the fact that the super-ambition is acting, my trip to Australia is justified.

The opportunity first popped up in November last year when my mum said "why don't you go to Australia to stay with Aunty Cherry for a wee while?" I thought hmmm.....okay. I could do that. So I thought, I'll have a wee look into it. When I did, there was something called a working holiday visa which entitles anyone between the ages of 21 and 35 the opportunity to go "down under" and work for up to 2 years. I filled in all the forms and then hit the proverbial bump in the road. I needed either a return ticket or A$1000 to buy one and A$5000, which comes to about £3,500. I don't have that kind of money! So, downhearted, I put my Aussie dream on a back burner.

That is, I put it on a back burner until tuesday when my Aunty Cherry who was visiting came over and reposed the question to me. I told her that I'd considered it but didn't have the money and she said, well why don't I sponsor you the money you need? SO YES! It's finally fricking happening. Well, I've not filled in the visa form again. But I now know the answer to the bump in the road question, do you have blah-blah-blah. YES! YES AUSTRALIAN IMMIGRATION I DO! YAY!!! And now, what is there really to stop me?

Just as a random end to the blog I thought I'd list the 3 most important things in my life.

1. My nephew, Alfie.
2. My friends.
3. My own personal sense of individuality.
   

I'll blog more as developments with Australia or anything else happening.
But how's that for an opener?!
Muchos loving. Paul xx

PS: This is me in action. Just thought I'd post it for all y'alls amoozmint.